Woke up, feeling just alright today. However, my temperature rose just when I was about to leave home. Not because I was having a fever though. Auntie Lita approached me. Said Mummy ask me to give them money to buy lunch. They did not have money for dinner as well yesterday. Had no choice but to eat instant noodle. I myself have no money to spear already and you are there asking money from me!!! What the fuck you take me for??? For GRANTED!!! Where the hell have all your god damn money gone to??? I was so pissed, got dressed up and storm out of the house.
You are like that. HE is also like that!!! Out of anger, went to update my bankbook. Another $50 was withdrawn yesterday. At that moment, felt like screaming my head off already.
From 12 to 8pm, I was so damn busy. There was no time at all for other things except to create reservations and picking up telephone calls.
When I left the office, I called Dear. He did not pick up the phone. Messaged him as well. When I reached the bus-stop of my house, I began to dial his number again. Call was rejected. Had an incoming call from him instead. Complained to him how pissed I was this morning. Warn him not to do it to me as well. I do not want things to turn ugly between me and him. Really wonder how long much can I tolerate HER???
Also told him I may not get my upselling amount for the month of Septemerb at the end of this month. That means no extra money to depend on. God, SAVE ME!!! All because of the new assistant Financial Controller. So unflexible. Everything must go by the book. Without him signing our finalize list, we will not be able to get the money. Jackie is trying to push very hard for it now. ***Prays real hard***
Still on the phone with him when I was walking down the stairs. I almost died!!! Slipped from the top of the stair. Managed to grab hold on the hand-rail and lend my other hand against the wall. Landed my feet on the second step. Thank goodness. Wonder what will happen if i really fell. Back hit the stair, hurt my spine, become cripple, or maybe even die!!!
Now, am not in a very good mood again. Wonder where he had got to know this girl whom he have been emailing lately. At first, she just sent him her resume, to ask him to get her a job. Seeing the title, I thought it might be someone he knew. So I moved her email to his inbox instead of the junk mail. Then, they have been exchanging emails since then. Why made me upset was the mail I saw today. This was what it said:
Hi mama,
I'm ok n how r u? aiya mama no need thanks all coz it's my pleasure to reply ur mail.
So far no new plans, just normal routine but maybe next week there will b changes. Well d other doubts is bout urself. Quater u mentioned ready that u r open minded, understanding n frendly. So d balance........................, If u r willing to inform la.
Actually one of my fren working in singapore. To tell d truth, i don't prefer working in singapore coz i don't like d environment. It will just nice if i get job in malaysia. Anyway, all depend with my luck n GOD grace too.
Thanks mama, so far i don't feel want anything but if later i feel i'll ask it frm u. "JUST HAVE A SAVE JOURNEY" n that is my wish for u.
Ok till here only,
I like ur sentences bout d happiness............
TAKE CARE URSELF N CHILL OUT UR PRECIOUS TIME.
FRM,
GUNA
Who the hell is she??? Really want to find out. But if I does, then he will know that I am been checking on him. Implying that I do not trust him. How??? Really feel like I am lost in the jungle.
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
1:45 PM